Decisions and Choices

Growing up is about making choices. Decisions that can affect your near future and distant future. For me, in high school, I thought I was way old enough to make my own decisions and choices. In college, I believed the choices and decisions I made in high school helped with my successes in high school and I was confident. As for life after college, well, I feel almost too young and not confident enough to make decisions on my own. I want everyone's help and everyone's opinion, but ultimately, the choice has to be mine.

Opportunities occur, offers are given, and decisions have to be made. In the midst of other things, the big decision I have to make very soon is where I'll be moving to next in NYC. Our lease is almost up and I'm in need of new arrangements! I've decided I've enjoyed the multiple roommate living situation enough for one year so I'm in search of a new place, my personal bachelorette pad, if you will. Apartment hunting in NYC is stressing me out! Where do I want to live? How much am I willing to pay? Studio or one bedroom? Ahh!!! I was SO fortunate that Bronson and Aundrey found the place I am currently living in! Made my life so much easier for the big move! But now, it's my decision, my choice, my responsibility. When did I grow up again and become old enough to make these choices? It's just another step in this NYC adventure and I know that once I make it through this decision, I'll be one step closer to "big girl-ness." I'll be so proud that I found it on my own and that I'm making important decisions in my life, but getting there is the scary part.

I have other decisions to come in the future, its inevitable, but hopefully this apartment one will help guide me to the next answer and the next choice. I keep trying to remind myself not to worry and that as long as I'm pro-active, everything will fall into place. Oh decisions, decisions, decisions...